November 30, 2005
My brother and I spent about 5 hours at the hospital today with my Dad. There has been little change in his condition and we have been told that we should not expect there to be to much improvement. We talked so that he could hear our voices and would know that we were there. When we had our ‘alone’ time with him, I told him about the kids and things that we were doing. It is difficult to see such a strong fighter…so helpless. We are going to make some major decisions in the next couple days. Hopefully we will be getting him into hospice care, and we will be dealing with things for when he is gone. I really feel so ‘alone’, my kids and husband are 6 hours away, so I cant deal with the issues that come up as I normally would, and emotionally I am exhausted. I have had headaches both days that I have been here, and the meds are barely keeping them under control. I am grateful to the nurses that are at the hospital with my dad, they are caring for my Dad and also for me. It seems that whenever they come in the room I am crying, they are there to comfort me as well. I am so grateful to them…
I will be going to the hospital about 11am tomorrow and will stay at least till my brother and step-mom can get there. I hope to be able to post again tomorrow…
Thank you all for the prayers and hugs…
Tags: cancer, hospice, Family, grieving
Comment by *Lisa
November 30, 2005 @ 8:37 am #
I’m so sorry to hear about this. It’s such a hard thing to deal with. 
Stay strong! God bless.
Thank you, I am doing my best
~ Dawn
Comment by *haidee
November 30, 2005 @ 8:45 am #
I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. I thought this little poem might help:
“God, in your hands, I surrender my spirit.”
It’s a prayer I wrote. When life’s too much to handle, I deepen my breath, say this pray, and give my burdens to God. He knows what’s best for us, and will take care of everything.
Stay strong.
Thank you so much, that is a beautiful poem
~ Dawn
Comment by *CT
November 30, 2005 @ 10:14 am #
I went through much the same thing earlier this year, when my father died. Best of luck with something that I’m sure will be very trying for you and your family.
It has been and will be for sometime yet, I am sure, been very trying. But he is not suffering any more and he is with Heavenly Father now and I am comforted by that thought
~ Dawn
Comment by *Dr. Fil
December 1, 2005 @ 6:57 am #
I’m sorry to hear about your father. I really do hope he gets better. Be strong. There’s a reason for everything. Except for letting yourself down. Seriously, be strong. We’ll pray for you.
Thank you
Getting better really was never part of this time. He had a terminal cancer and we just were able to spend the last days and hours letting him know that we were there and we loved him
~ Dawn
Comment by *Orikinla Osinachi
December 1, 2005 @ 10:56 am #
Hope for the best.
God bless.
Thank you, he didnt suffer, and he passed on knowing that we all loved him.
~ Dawn
Comment by *Minerva
December 1, 2005 @ 5:58 pm #
This is a very hard time and I am thinking of you… Share all those memories and say everything you need/want to say… Being there with him will mean so much,
Minerva
thank you so much. We did share memories and stories. We let him know that we were remembering the good times, even though he couldnt talk to us or let us know how he was feeling, We made the last hours with him a happy memory
~ Dawn
Comment by *Bes
December 2, 2005 @ 3:02 am #
I didn’t read the previous posts in time. I hope you, your Dad and your family have all the support your guys need.
Wishing him the best. Please know that we’ll be checking to see what’s going on.
The internet is a really funny place. One can say they feel something for someone, and it can be either true, or merely words. Please know that all of us really wish him and you the best.
Lots of hugs to you and your Dad.
Thank you, I was with my dad when he passes.
I have found that the people who I have met online tend to be honest. I hope that most people who would post, would be honest.
~ Dawn
Comment by *Dawn
December 2, 2005 @ 3:33 pm #
I’m so sorry to hear this. We’re all rooting for you guys. Hang in there.
thank you
Comment by *Jeannie
December 3, 2005 @ 7:15 pm #
I know this is a hard time for you–I’m so sorry.
Jeannie
Thank you
~ Dawn
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